I always saw myself as an independent person. I had dreams of graduating college and moving to New York City to score a corner office and prestigious job title. I figured I would become a mother one day, because that’s just what all the women in my life did. …but I had no set plans or daydreams about becoming a young stay-at-home mom.
In 2006 I graduated from high school, moved 10 hours away from home to attend college, and within that first year I had fallen in love and married my sweet husband, Mike.
My plans of being an independant woman in the big city were not on track as I had originally planned, but it didn’t matter. I was in love, happy, and working towards a college degree in communications, still hoping to one day dominate the PR world.
…but then a year later, Mike and I were surprised to learn that we were expecting a baby. I was only 20 years old. I was not ready! How was I going to be a mother? Every hope and dream I ever had of a successful career seemed to disappear overnight.
…and it didn’t help that morning sickness nearly killed me. I was miserable.
After my oldest daughter, BryLee, was born I battled horrible postpartum depression for years. The problem was that I didn’t think there was anything wrong, I just assumed that all mothers felt the way I did. It wasn’t until another friend of mine became a mom and started posting on Facebook about how much she loved taking her baby to restaurants with her friends and how she was excited to fly home soon to show the baby off to family.
People left the house with their babies? What? That was news to me. That’s when I knew I wasn’t okay. I was sad, exhausted, lonely, panicky, and not enjoying my motherhood status. …and poor Mike was working 11 hour days an hour away from home. We barely saw each other and to make matters worse, we were a one car family, so while Mike was working, I was stranded. It’s pitifully funny to look back on now, but at the time, it was anything but humerous. I was just young, inexperienced, self conscious, and probably a little embarrassed that I felt so unstable.
When I talk about my postpartum depression, I don’t mean to hurt my friends or family’s feelings for not turning to them. It’s not that I didn’t trust them. It’s just that I didn’t know what to say or how to ask for help. I wish it were easier for moms to feel comfortable admitting that they’re struggling. That’s why I started to blog specifically for mothers. I don’t want anyone to feel the way that I felt and I want to try to reach as many women as possible to let them know that there is support and help, and that they are very much not alone.
Over the past 7 years I’ve grown up, learned a lot, and recovered from my dark parenting days. Now I can proudly say that long nights don’t phase me, screaming children don’t give me panic attacks, and temperamental toddlers don’t scare me. I can even confidently take all 3 of my kids out in public without feeling frazzled, which may seem like a little thing…but it’s kind of a huge deal considering how I began my motherhood journey.
…but seven years ago when I couldn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel, I wish I would have had an online support group of mothers who were experiencing the same things as me. I wish I would have known that I wasn’t alone. Can you image how nice it would be if we could all find moms to connect with who just understood us and empathized with our situations?
Oh wait! …we totally can! Have you ladies heard of Hello Mama’s?! It’s a brilliant app designed to help you connect with local moms! You can find moms who have similar interests & families as you, set up playdates, PPD support group sessions, or Sonic runs, duh. The app uses a fancy pants matching system specifically designed based on the founders own experiences so finding moms near you is easy, quick, fun, and totally not at all stalker-creepy, I promise. Check out the Hello Mama’s website or Facebook page for more info and info you’re in San Antonio, let’s Mom-Date!
I’m so thrilled to be working with the amazing women over at Hello Mama’s as part of their influencer program. I’ll be posting monthly articles for them covering all sorts of topics from PPD to threenager meltdowns to awkward playdates. I can’t wait for you ladies to check it out!
Hello! My name is MaLyn! …Professional stay-at-home mom, budding writer, avid burrito connoisseur, gold accessory enthusiast, princess Kate fanatic, and vanilla diet Dr. Pepper obsessed! I live in San Antonio Texas with my husband, Mike, and our 3 wildly adorable kids, BryLee, Ellie, and Maverick. Mike’s a super computer nerd saving the world one line of code at a time, and I play carpool while juggling children, errands, blogging, and my online shop. I believe that happiness is a choice. I am an advocate for magical childhoods. Laughter is my favorite past-time and enjoying life is my thing. You can follow my happy little chaotic life adventure on Instagram: @malyn.logic and/or on the blog: www.malynlogic.com